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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 11:58

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Im still living with it.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

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And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I was very sick at this time too.

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And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

According to the Gita, how do I abandon fruits of my karma? Should I donate my whole salary and stay hungry?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

How do Flat Earthers explain time zones?

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Is it wrong that I picked to be a Christian (as a teenager/14-year-old) even with knowing all of the information about other religions/atheism?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Are judges being lenient on hard criminals?

Ive learnt so much.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Can cheating be a result of not truly loving or caring for someone, or is it sometimes just a spur of the moment decision?

I couldn’t, believe it.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

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Im dying but, im not bitter.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Especially a lifetime of it.

I caught my husband of 20 years looking at inappropriate pics of women on TikTok or Instagram. I'm not sure., but when I told him he got mad and made excuses of why they popped up. I then told him how I've snuck on his phone and saw what he's been looking at . We had a horrible big fight. I asked him why did he even marry me when I see the type he likes . Nothing like me, I'm petite, blonde and blue eyes. These women are dark haired dark eyed and have curvy bodies, large breasts, etc. I just don't feel the same about him after this. I can't get over this

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

She married twice! .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

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My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

But it wasn’t much.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Put me off passion for life!!

I was scared of men, in general

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Why did i forgive my father ?

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

So, i spoilt her more .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I will be 64.

I was seconnd youngest,

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

She wouldn,t have been !

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Comes on , in middle age.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

When she asked me how she looked .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I said to her

I could never make a relationship work though!

She found it foreign!.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But ive been too sick for many years..

She was in good health!

He knew the spot.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I think the readers, may guess!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Who then, do I blame.?

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

She loved him until the end.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

This is soul school!.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

My family never makes their pension either.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

What did i know ?

He was dying to do it , i knew.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

As i do to all so called friends.?

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I was 9 years of age.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

So whats the point in blame.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

One cannot live in the past .

Would this be the day?

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

(And it was in our own minds.)

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I have no regrets .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

We all went to grammer schools

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

But, we were locked up after school.

I don,t even have a pension.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

It was going to be , some day.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I write beautiful poetry .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

All the time i was locked up.

And i lived it daily.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My life is so biszare .

We were not on the streets..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I waited trembling.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.